The job offer

I can't believe I have made it to the next round of interviews for this job in Madison WI. I am see about the next couple of steps before I go visit Madison. Wisconsin is so damn cold but 70K a year will get me moving and maybe I might just be happier with a new start. I am miss my family and friends but I can't seem to find a good job here so I have no choice. I talked to my kids and they are fine with us leaving. I don't care what their fathers say because I am raising these kids alone so they are a non factor. I am single and I have no relationship ties here anymore so nothing is holding me back. I have been looking for homes and they are so nice out their big yards near the water. I would love to share that with someone but that's not in my cards right now. Who knows maybe my dream man is in Madison. LOL So yes guys I have made up my mind if they offer me the job which it's looking good I will be packing up the truck and moving. Except this time NorthAmerica will be moving us and we will be on Delta waiting to land. I am miss Maryland and I am miss everyone. But this job is the salary I have always wanted to make plus I have stock options and room to grow in the company. Well keep praying for us. TTYL

Lost of Faith

I have worked so hard to get where I am. I have been applying to every job I can think of and I was getting to the point I was about to give up. Today I got a email that I was qualified for a federal job. I have to keep the faith. With everything going on in my life it's hard to keep that faith. I am down on my luck and now is the time for me to figure out what's going on in my life and where I want to take certain things. Now that I am going through hard times certain people have abandoned me but hey that's ok. God will help me get through what I am going through. All the stress depending on other people I don't need that and I don't need people in my life who are only there for me when I can help them. Well time for me to lay back down and figure somethings out.

Realization

I titled this blog realization because after this weekend I heard a couple of voice mails on my phone and several text messages and came to the realization that I need to move on and be by my damn self. I am not going to let anyone I don't care who you are talk to me or talk about me like I was talked to this past weekend. I had a wonderful time this past weekend and I don't care who knows it. Some people are just thrown off their rocker especially when they know you are not together and they know you are going away with someone else. But I am so over that, and him telling me he has company and asking me for an address to a club in Ocean City didn't make me feel bad at all. I know what's what and I know who has my back 100% and not only when they are getting what they want. I will be 30 this year and I am planning to go to either Scandals Bahamas Resort or One and Only Resort in Jamaica. That whole week I will not be worried about other people and their problems. I will be chilling with whom ever I decide to ask to go with me. They will only be going if they can pay their half also.

Life is to short to be sitting up here worried about who he is with or what he is doing. I don't ask him to worry about what I am doing. Hell if he cared about what I was doing he wouldn't of turned on me so fast. He wouldn't of walked away now would he. But guess what he's mad and we all know why he is mad. His main plan with the other chick didn't go where he wanted it so he thinks I can't do no better then him and I should fall back in line like a little solider. Bull Shit I had plans made when he was running behind the other women's skirt tail. Just because his road lead to no where doesn't mean I have to make a U-turn and pick him back up. It just means I make better choices in the people I surround myself around. I can go the rest of my life and not have to deal with this tug a war between me, him, and the other guy. But after being disrespected the way I was this past weekend no one has to worry about playing tug a nothing. What else is real funny this man comes to my home state with the other women in a rental car he asked me to pay for drives past me to go to the airport and doesn't think about my feelings. But I go to a resort where he was TALKING about taking me: I put TALKING in caps because that's all it was TALK...and I get called all types of names. See there's no color to anything he does it's all black and white and I should be the sweet girlfriend and throw away a great friendship and a great weekend because he wants to be a child and pout. He can keep pouting over that spilled milk because guess what I am be alright. DEUCES back to you. I was born in this world alone and I will leave it the same way. TTYL

hey

Hey everyone I haven' blogged in a min but I haven't forgotten about this blog either. This past weekend was like no other weekend. I spent time with Dre at a beautiful resort and had a blast. Taking time for myself was all I needed to do this weekend. Not having no drama follow me this weekend was a big focus of mines, and with his help we had no drama this weekend. I mean we had a speed bump while at dinner and a movie but it was handled the way it needed to be handled. I don't like people calling me a lire when I clearly didn't turn my phone off. I never turn my phone off. All of the texting and yelling was so uncalled for, this weekend was planned to be peaceful and that's what it was at the end of the night. People say I am not there for them but they fail to realize I was the only one there when they didn't have anyone there for them. But I guess that doesn't count...I am not going to sit back and cry over something or someone that clearly doesn't accept me for who I am. I am not going into detail about the drama that was brought to me this weekend. But please believe I don't have to worry about that mess anymore. It's funny how someone says they are not going to call you but then all they do is call you and text you. Then turn around and say I don't have any time for them. I was on vacation from my own mess. If what this person needed to say to me was so important they would of texted me not the other way around and all of this I needed you talk wouldn't of came when they found out where I was at this past weekend. That's all I am saying....I have some financial things going on in my life and I will work these problems out and be back on my A game. But please believe I clearly see who's in my corner and who's not in my corner. So this is tree shaking time and I don't need no fake leaves in my circle. I am post some pics I took of the room they are so nice...we will be going back very soon for a much longer stay. Now it's time for me to think about what I want for my B-Day..I am thinking Vegas or somewhere we need Passports...LOL