The week

This past weekend was crazy. My kids were gone for a whole week and time is going by so fast. This past weekend was to much. I went over my cousins went to see my other Aunt in the hospital then went and hung out with someone who wants to be the man in my life. Now this man is the sweetest man ever. We so much fun until me him my bestie and his boy started drinking. Its clear this man cant drink. I am not going to go into details about the time we spent together but he has potential to be that one. When we were together it was so peaceful. He wants to make this work but he knows i have stipulations. I can say one thing this man shows me what I need and what I want out of a relationship. He is strong and not a push over it feels funny to be with someone other then Dre but he knows how I feel about him and that our relationship is an ever lasting one. This past week I also got some bad news I lost another aunt. She has been fighting for years now and God just took her home. It's been a bad couple of weeks in my family but we are making it through. I realized some things about myself this past week and somethings about others in my life. I feel great about my decision to start this new relationship, no lies, no drama, and no bullshit. Spending the past 4 days with him I got to know more about him and I am ready to find out much more. The question is will my feelings for Dre cloud my judgement. I am not going to lie I love Dre but i wanted more and he just wasn't ready for that. Like he says "If your not taking a shit get off the pot". I am sit back and enjoy my time with my new man and still know that Dre is there for me through thick and thin just as I am there for him. We are thick as thieves, but I want more.

Whats on my mind

Today is August 11, 2012. Today I was supposed to be getting ready to get married. Having the wedding of my dreams but due to unforeseen events that will not be happening. I knew today was coming but I figured I would be able to not think about it and just go on with my life like it never meant anything. But I cant. I cant sit back and just forget about what today was supposed to be. Now I know some are saying why not? I picked this day to get marred on, I had a huge wedding planned with a cake from Cake Boss in NJ. But none of that is happening right now. Soon with the right man. Yes I said the right man. There was to many people in my last relationship. There was to many lies, cheating, and playing around in my lat relationships. Well I just had to get this off my chest. I may be laying with someone else but he knows what today was supposed to be and he respects the fact I feel sad about things that happened in the past. I know we cant change what happened in the past but I am in a good space right now. I am being honest about whats going on and my eyes are wide open. Time to hit the bed.

Kiss Kiss TTYL

Good Day

Feeing good today. Talked to my homegirl about moving on. The dating sceen is still crazy as ever, but I got it down. What I mean by that is weeding out the crazy ones. What I like about dating is not having to come out my pocket for anything that whole night.See I am not used to that, my last relationship I paid all the time so it feels good. It feels good to have a man call me who wants to be with me and only me. This man is holding me down in my time of nebed and its something i have been wanting for a very long time.Being able to pick up the phone say my phone or cable bill is due, and i hear dont worry about it and the bill gets taken care of. Time for a change when it comes to relationships

Hey Hey

Hey Hey people hows everything going? Haven't been online for a little while I have been so busy living my life. Life has been hard had some real set backs but that's life. My Aunt passed away and yes I took it hard but I had family and friends there to help me through those hard days. I am back dating again and I am telling you the dating world is a huge mess. Since when have men became so damn sensitive. I have been out with men who all cry when I don't drop what I am doing and tend to their needs. Hell I have kids I do that for. I swear every time I don't answer my phone its some man having a dying emergency. I just want to say look fellas I am single and I don't have to jump when you call. I am just not doing it. Sometimes I feel the need to give up on dating all together. But I can say their is one man that does understand me. I talk to him about these lame dudes and we just sit back and crack up. He knows me better then any man right now, and some say our relationship is meaningless but that's far from the truth. I bet you guys are reading this saying "Hello why are you dating when your perfect man is right there." This weekend was supposed to be my wedding day, I thought I was going to be depressed and feeling down but I am not. I have realized that life is to short and you have to leave the past in the past and move on. Whatever GOD sees fit for my life then thats whats going to happen. If I was meant to get married this weekend then it would of happend but thats not the case. So yes I am looking for Mister right and not mister right now. Who knows mister right might come before I even realize it.